Transgender, Androgyny, Alchemy and The Problem with Allopathic Pharma. 

You will notice that in my music and visuals I make reference to, work with and support androgyny and the expression of gender alchemy beyond the materialist conversation of biological gender and our capacity as creative beings to explore beyond this. I wish to share some thoughts about something I am becoming increasingly aware of and that deeply bothers me. First, I do not assign to any left or right binary political agenda or ideology. I feircly protect myself from this and believe in moving beyond a 2 party political system and the original intent of democracy corrupted by the Romans. I do not hate, fear, disagree with or am against anyone exploring for themselves via allopathic or transhumanist interventions who they are or to experiment with gender, sexuality and the deeper concepts of masculine and feminine alchemy. Though i do have a strong instinct we should tread cautiously into that space, without hype and impatience. 

What I am deeply concerned about is that those who are born outside of the status quo of biological sex and gender, are potentially in danger of ideology, corporate tyranny and enslavement via the hijacking of identity to drive what I believe, are high spiritual beings, into enslavement to a product, hormone or identity that benefits and brings large profit to those who supply that solution. This is a very difficult conversation and one that many don't want to have, or will object to when I try and express from my personal opinion and perspective. But it is something I feel needs to be explored. I also question the rebranding of the gradient of androgyny to transgender and queer terminology and the potential threat of transgender and transhumanism being cleverly joined to amass public support for technological impositions of our biology. I am not anti-tech. My opinions and perceptions come from a place of trying to find the balance between synthesis and the organism. Between god and the machine. Between materialism and spiritualism. In that place of infinite opposites, contradictions and confusions I feel there IS an intended and clearly organised push through culture and pop culture through androgyny and middle gender (which has always existed in some form) towards a corporate, pharmaceutical and ultimately bio-tech agenda functioning on profits and a potential that those who are born as oracles, seers, prophets, healers and natural high spiritual beings are at high risk of being damaged by materialist impositions sold as gatekeepers to identity expression. Than to have a solid social understanding of the potential of who those androgynous beings may be and may offer value to the greater social construct. Especially in the ability to expand consciousness and access the spiritual realms.

Often I am trying to battle my mind between the more conservative spiritual texts and wisdoms that assert at times, rigid definitions of gender, sexuality and self expression with the experiences I have had traveling, meeting, working with and exploring myself in gender and self expression. Often, I am in deep pits of despair trying to find a balance between extreme liberal views of accepting and tolerating everything versus the need to have discernment, boundaries, principles and conserve energy and respect tradition. Both of which i think hold equal importance and reflect my rejection of binary political sides, groupthink and cult-like compliance to perception and narrative - instead of encouraging each individual to think freely and promote the ability for us to come to our own perception to give back to the collective and expand us, than to contract us into categories, identities and in the effort to "save" and "protect" people from harm, sacrifice deeper spiritual potential for material safety. Something that sadly is often sold to us as help, but is orchestrated by dark forces that play on our insecurity, fear of mortality and to be accepted and deep worry of rejection and isolation. Add to this, the pop culture machine, that often shapes social perception and is at the forefront of the "avant garde", often blindly bandwagons itself on anything that pushes against tradition. Something that has informed my own art in many ways (Bowie is one of my greatest inspirations) but also holds a danger if that movement is corrupted by corporate entities. The corporitsation of trans, the corporatisation of queer and so on. This is where I feel a real and present danger. 

So back to the root. Currently there is a political, ideological, social and scientific debate on "WHAT IS GENDER". Mostly within a materialist PHI (Physics) based scientific modality. Somewhat rooted in the mind, that perceives in binary perceptions. XX & XY chromosomes, the male and the female as sexual opposites and the promotion of a tradtional family dynamics for religious, traditional and socio-typical conservativisms. These, in my opinion, are not wrong, in order to grow and maintain the social order we must embrace the family and have a healthy environments for children to be raised that are stable, respectful of tradition and not demonised by those who exist outside of that status quo. But the problem to me here isn't the conversative, or the traditional. It is a lack of understanding of basic concepts of alchemy and what in energy, masculinity and feminity, the male form and the female form, mean. 

First, MALE is Electric. FEMALE is Magnetic. Often represented by the upwards triangle, like a pyramid (male) and the downwards triangle, an upside down pyramid (the female). At the core of their energy they are the polarities of moving energy. The masculine sends, the feminine receives. This is how our sexual organs function as well. How gender expression reflects (women who look beautiful to attract/magnetise energy vs men who do/act/approach as the expression of electricity). Every planet, organism, atom, galaxy and expression of energy had both forms of magnetism and electricity. The SUN, holds the solar system together, in the magnetism of its gravity, but also sends electricity as light to all planets that creates and maintains life. So by alchemical gender definition. The SUN and any planet, is neither masculine/male or feminine/female, but containing elements of both polarities. GOD can neither be male or female either, because that which creates utilises both magnetism and electricity. So here is an illumination that androgyny, the mixing of gender, the ascension beyond the binary gender state, in not ALL but some individuals, expresses an energy closer to that of god, the cosmic truth, the binary perception, the physical expression. It has some bearing on a spiritual phenomenon, not a physical violation. In religion, this expression is often demonised as well. For example, in India, SHIVA is androgynous, JESUS is not a rugged hairy lumberjacking male, but soft eyed, long haired and androgynous. Many other mythologies express androgynous beings, or beings from an angelic realm that feel less defined by their reporductive organs and carry an energy that encompasses both realised magnetism and realised electricity. So the question then, is perhaps this is part of our journey towards ascension, to balance our gender in the exploration of metaphysical concepts and explorations. Perhaps we are getting it wrong by trying to pass as the other gender, when we may be born as a conduit for angelic expressions of androgyny that can lead, assist and help others into a more balanced existence. To not deny binary gender, nor feel the need to reject or to change it. But organically and spiritually ascend it. Perhaps the allopathic model functions more on an enslavement and predatory motive to be the gatekeeprrs to those higher realms, than having a society that encourages to explore it. A way to spiritually lobotomise, or inhibit prophets and angels who are born naturally androgynous into a rigid, often grating material existence, than to support, encourage, nurture and share their potential. These are just thoughts, they are not opinions. I think about this a lot. My experience of "trans" and "queer" and many "homosexual" people who clearly exist outside of the bounds of dominant electricity (male) or dominant magnetic (female) is that they see and perceive differently than those who are more within a status quo nature. They offer new perspectives, new ideas, original vibrations. I have also descended into the dark realms of destructive sexual hedonism within those spaces too which honestly do reflect some biblical warnings, where I have seen many lost, broken and dark souls in the dark rooms of clubs. I don't want to admit any religion to that, but I cannot deny what I feel and through my own curiosity and liberalisms have also experienced how it has affected my own health, happiness and spiritual wellbeing. Does that make it wrong? No. It is important to find a harmony for me between not demonising religion, nor demonising hedonism or sexual freedom/exploration. How are we to learn anything, when we demonise something? We shut ourselves off from its wisdom. We throw the baby out with the bathwater. A priest cannot judge hedonism if they have lived a life of purity and a hedonist cannot judge a priest if they have lived a life of unbound freedom of sexual desire. Betwen both there is a powerful teaching, and a deeper teaching that we must do what we feel is right for us and share our experiences to truly understand. A book, an ideology, a faith, an identity may make us feel protected by the definitions of others that we use to define us, but we can never truly know if we don't explore for ourselves. So it makes no sense to judge others, but learn from where they may have failed or made mistakes. The priest who suppresses their sexual desire that expresses itself in sexual abuse and exploitation, the queer hedonist who denies god and follows their sexual impulse wherever it goes and becomes lost or succeptible to dark forces. Evil is clearly present in both spectrums. So it is not a conversation of who is better or worse, but to understand how to balance devotion and desire, following rules and breaking them, how identity can lead us astray and follow others than to find ourselves and live in authenticity. That we are all teachers and our greatest mistakes help others, but only if we have the ability to confront them and be truthful to ourselves. Ideologies, groupthink and institutionalised constructs often try and silence those who speak truth to perpetuate their control over centralised narrative. 

My question, is what is the balance of a homeopathic transgender person, to an allopathic transgender person. I do not want to deny anyone their truth. I simply want to see and explore what this form of androgyny means without pharmaceutical medicine in the equation. That does not function on hate, or disagreement. It functions from a place of wanting to protect our most vulnerable and potentially gifted people, who could change the lives of many for the better, from being the victims of predation from corporate/materialist entities. That is all. I hope my attempt to explain very difficult inner thoughts, expands your interest in asking those questions too. How can we bridge the spiritual with the material, the physical with the psychological in the space of gender and androgyny, without creating an opposition to the status quo existence? I think there is a potential for great peace in working towards that aim, but we have to be prepared to question ideology, culture, religion and intellectualisms that often demand and promote "othering".